

Suffocatingunder your weightSuffocating
i can feel my entire being collapsing you've pushed me so far I can't tell the difference between up and down left or right good and bad your consistent fingerprints around my neck remind me to never forget I swear that i'm going to run away that someday I'll take her with me
but for what? you don't see in her
what you see in me you don't hate her
like you hate me maybe it's the way i'm just like the first one the way i talk like the first one the way I succumb to you like the first one or the way our features are


PromiseFirst DatePromise
Late night
long talk
sweet kiss
Tenth Date 3 am coffee shop holding hands lost in his eyes
One Year Anniversary Hotel room Candles and rose petals showing her love
Three Year Anniversay New apartment on one knee she can't stop the tears
Third Month Of Marriage She wasn't asleep he came home she can't see through the swelling
Seventh Month Of Marriage She was tired He wouldn't let go took a three hour shower
Ninth Month Of Marriage She packe


WarI can't lie The air is thicker now then it's ever beenWar
Sitting here, forcing myself to be with you
It's undescribeable
Every thought in my head screams
He's it! Look The Perfect Guy
But every beat of my heart says What If he's not your perfect guy
I feel trapped
I'm fighting a battle and losing a war
You seem so right but this feels all wrong
Why can't this be easy....
I want to care I want to feel


StillHalf awakeStill
and completely asleep
She's wrapped up in his lies
their every moment together has been simple tricks of the mind
nothing but a game
She's new to these emotions she doesn't understand
that none of this is real
He plays with her hair and kisses her forehead
right before it begins
So blind to his act she succumbs without question
only a fool could do the same
He goes on and on never looking at her face
it just blends in with the others
the tear
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cellar door
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"Life may not be the party we hoped for,
But while we are here, we might as well dance....."
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So you make a mask,
A mask that hides your face,
A face that hides the pain,
A pain that eats your heart,
A heart nobody knows."
~Bang Bang You're Dead
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